Betrayal

Penghianatan?
Have you ever deal with this kind of thing?
I had.. and the saddest thing is it never comes out from your enemies, but from people you love, people you trust.
And the first thing you feel after you knew their betrayal?
I was afraid. Takut membayangkan itu benar. Takut tidak akan ada hal lain yang mungkin bisa menyangkalnya. Takut untuk percaya bahwa iya itu perbuatan dia, mereka. Orang yang harusnya bisa aku percaya.

Dulu. Dulu sekali. Aku pernah merasakan yang namanya penghianatan, and it was making me in sick for such a long time.
Hal pertama yang aku rasakan takut, kemudian marah dan hopeless to find a reason to denial that they did it to you..and finally I accepted it. I should..because I'm a human being, and a betrayal just a litlle one thing that I must through with an open heart.

Aku bukan hanya pernah menjadi korban dalam sebuah penghianatan.
I did it, I admit it and I feel sorry for people who I betrayed.
I learned a betrayal is one of the cruelest things to do. We do that just for our happiness. We stab back people who trust us until they hate us. Isn't it pathetic? We are smarter that that and we can play a better game than that.

Aku pernah berada pada saat aku menjadi korban. Menjadi pelaku. Dan keduanya membawa rasa sakit dan penyesalan yang besar.. which makes me have a trust issue.
Itu dulu. Now I have changed. I try to be a better person, for me and for people I love.

For everyone yang pernah aku hianati, I do really sorry.
I didn't mean to hurt you. It's just life, you know?
Bad things and good things happened, it's not about karma or things like that.
I experience things like you do, it's fair kok.
It's life, and we have to keep moving on.